Dreamer’s Poetry

There was this sudden over owning surrounding from all side, There was this sense of relief! Something or someone from inside whispered, "IT'S ALRIGHT!" All those anxiety, insecurities, All those creeping fears, All those dreams and nightmares! It felt as if they never had been there! Sense of time was gone! Sense of mind was gone! All there was, Was this feeling called "love" It was all because of this girl sitting next to him, Those long hours of chitchat and mumbling, That sweet smile which use to mesmerize him, That tight comforting hug, There was nothing special about it, Yet that hug was so relieving, It just like a dose of marijuana without any THC in it, All those silly gestures and useless talks, She was just a commoner just like everyone else, Yet she had this charisma all around, His eyes would stare at her for hours without a blink, For it was the foremost beauty he had ever seen, His mouth used to get zipped up, Cause ...

There was this boy, Small and Crazy, Lazy and Clumsy, Always wondered about the world, For all the wonders there will be, For all the dragons and fairies, For all the friends he'll have, For all the games he'll play, When he will come out of the box !! But Scared and frightened that he was! He used to look from the windows, To all those people walking by, To all green plants and open grounds, To all games, other were playing, No chains, no attachments, And used to look at himself, All he used see was an invisible chain, Linked to his family, Threads of attachments, Linked with everyone all around him. Never good at anything, Clumsy in his own way, Struggling in everything he did, Science, math, history culture, religion, languages None of these could he understand.! All he knew was to play, Not to win but to simply play, Dance and smile :D And wait for that faithful day When he will be out of his little box, That little boy! That little boy! ...

Someone whom he thought to be his own. Now seems like a stranger... An acquaintance whom he has seen or met somewhere. A sweet gentle smile which made his day. Now like a myth which he might have seen somewhere. That long tight "HUG", A simple, kind and loving gesture she used, Which made me jump from misery to bliss, Now just like an "ACT", Which seems like a dream he once had. All those silly gestures she used to make, All those random talks they used to have,  Now just ....(silence)... All those memories... Visiting random places,  Laughing and long out-of-the-league conversations,  All those random talks about the future,  Now  It seems like - An imaginary made-up story, Which might have happened "once up at a time "...  It seems she has found HER way.  It seems she has found someone whom she can call HERS.  But  It seems he lost one another...(Shh.) Now just a stranger. And again ...

Only if he could express his mix mood swings... His weird and irrational behaviors starting to Come to the surface If only he could shed some tears, Noone can comprehend what he's experiencing, A certain realization which couldn't be put in words, The world so infinite... The universe so vast and so mystical... For the infinitely finite possibilities that could have happened!! Every incident, accident, and event happened  Happened for a reason, But Yet "life" has no reason of its own, Everyone everywhere so focused, yet so lost Like one blind following the other blind. Everyone just lying there... Moving on their own like puppets..! Everyone so driven by their own ego, Yet forgotten all about the collective consciousness we all are part of!!

अब आयो काल ! आफ्नो ना त पराई केहि नभनी , खोइ त के गर्यो तिम्रो त्यो पैसाले , पावरले , तेत्तो थुपारेको सम्पतिले ती सबै मेरो हो भन्थ्येउ , कोहि बेला तेस्को लागि मर्न र मार्न तत्पर हुन्थ्येउ !! कहाँ गयो त त्यो तिम्रो जग्गाजमिन !! कहाँ गयो त तिम्रो इमानइज्त !! कहाँ गयो त तिम्रो पुर्खौली सम्पति !! के लिएर जादैछौ त खोइ !! आखिर के रहिछ त तिम्रो मुठीमा !! कहाँ गए ? तिम्रा ती आफ्नु भन्नेहरु छोराछोरी, आमाबुवा साथीसंगी कत्ति न ठुलो काम गरे ! कति ठुलो मान्छे बने भंथ्येउ ! खोई त के गर्न सके त उनीहरुले ? लग्यो होइन त कालले !!! गयो होइन त सास अरु जसरी नै ! रिसराग ,दोयेस ,घमण्ड के के चाही गरेनौ ! यो गर्छु ,त्यो गर्छु ! यो मेरो ,यो तेरो ! मेरो धर्म तेरो धर्म , मेरो जात तेरो जात , मेरो परिवार मेरा साथीभाई , ती मेरा शत्रुहरू यो मेरो देश त्यो तेरो देश भनेर कति संग लड्डेउ ! कतिलाइ मर्रेउ पनि ! अनि अहिले के तिम्रो देश लिएर जादै छौ ? कि तिम्रो धर्म लादैछौ ? कि तिम्रो जात लादैछौ !!! तिम्रा आफ्ना भन्निले त सम्म्पतिमा दाउ मरे त ! बरु शत्रुहरूले चाहिँ सोक मनाए ! कमाएको सम्पतिको ठुलो घमण्ड थियो होइन ...

As it blew, So did he. .!  As it shattered, So did he..!   He stared at the wall,  As if a psychopath,  He smiled,  He was a clown,  Clown 🤡 he never wanted to be...!   The silent whispered  The fake smile  The act he acted...   His wandering came to an end.  His mind lost in the mist.  His soul searching for its gist. His whole being trying to burst  Like A silent nuclear explosion 💥  The madness taking him over  The sadness drowning him the way...   A lost guy trying to find his aliveness

He fell for her body, She had the most beautiful  voice in the world, She fell for his flirting talks, He was like her self-fulfilling half, In the name of "LOVE" "COMMITMENT & VOWS" were taken!! As time pass by, Life moving on, Body became fragile,  Mind stressed out from the same thing, Soul tried and bored with one another, Now She was no more a satisfaction, Voice became the crow shouting, He was no more a fulfillment, Talks became World Wars, But Both were chained with one another, Chains of "COMMITMENT & VOWS" "Society's order & Family's Pride"  Now bound to live in hell for eternity, Heaven remained just a possibility !!  As for "LOVE", It had disappeared a long time ago, Both of them blindfolded by their desire for one another, Tree of love was never seeded !! The seed was thrown away, Long before it could even spout!! The seed was thrown away, Long before flowers of...