I Was ! Was I ?

I was dreaming a dream,

I was drowning in my own ambition,

I was full of ego so much that I had forgotten the harsh reality,

I was walking a strange path with no ones help,

I was planning for a wonderful future ,

I was living in a land where everything seems to be foreign,

I was thinking to travel far and wide in a search of my own,

I was in a search of my people my family not just biological ,

I was in a run to find a utopia,

But still

Was I dreaming that i high even though that dream was a inch from my reach ?

Was I drown in my ambition even though I was making others smile ?

Was I so much full of ego even though I regretted each & every mistake i made ?

Was it wrong to smile and wonder about the future ?

Was it wrong to dream ?

Was it wrong to wander ?

Was it wrong ?

But before anything could happen ,

A hurricane came,

The ground started to shake,

Things started to vanish,

Destruction and chaos was all i could see,

Before even knowing I was dreaming a dream ,

My dream shattered ,

Physically I'm here with u all ,

But deep inside me there is rage & agony,

Fire in my eyes,

Volcano erupting in my veins,

But

Vengeances in the solution ,

Anger is not the way,

Rage is not what i want,

Today a disaster came tomorrow creation will take place..

So I shall wait,

I shall smile,

So shall It be,

Because  -

“I m neither the doer nor the doing ,

I m an observer that sees, that observe”(~Ekart Tolle)