Dreamer’s Poetry

अब आयो काल ! आफ्नो ना त पराई केहि नभनी , खोइ त के गर्यो तिम्रो त्यो पैसाले , पावरले , तेत्तो थुपारेको सम्पतिले ती सबै मेरो हो भन्थ्येउ , कोहि बेला तेस्को लागि मर्न र मार्न तत्पर हुन्थ्येउ !! कहाँ गयो त त्यो तिम्रो जग्गाजमिन !! कहाँ गयो त तिम्रो इमानइज्त !! कहाँ गयो त तिम्रो पुर्खौली सम्पति !! के लिएर जादैछौ त खोइ !! आखिर के रहिछ त तिम्रो मुठीमा !! कहाँ गए ? तिम्रा ती आफ्नु भन्नेहरु छोराछोरी, आमाबुवा साथीसंगी कत्ति न ठुलो काम गरे ! कति ठुलो मान्छे बने भंथ्येउ ! खोई त के गर्न सके त उनीहरुले ? लग्यो होइन त कालले !!! गयो होइन त सास अरु जसरी नै ! रिसराग ,दोयेस ,घमण्ड के के चाही गरेनौ ! यो गर्छु ,त्यो गर्छु ! यो मेरो ,यो तेरो ! मेरो धर्म तेरो धर्म , मेरो जात तेरो जात , मेरो परिवार मेरा साथीभाई , ती मेरा शत्रुहरू यो मेरो देश त्यो तेरो देश भनेर कति संग लड्डेउ ! कतिलाइ मर्रेउ पनि ! अनि अहिले के तिम्रो देश लिएर जादै छौ ? कि तिम्रो धर्म लादैछौ ? कि तिम्रो जात लादैछौ !!! तिम्रा आफ्ना भन्निले त सम्म्पतिमा दाउ मरे त ! बरु शत्रुहरूले चाहिँ सोक मनाए ! कमाएको सम्पतिको ठुलो घमण्ड थियो होइन ...

As it blew, So did he. .!  As it shattered, So did he..!   He stared at the wall,  As if a psychopath,  He smiled,  He was a clown,  Clown 🤡 he never wanted to be...!   The silent whispered  The fake smile  The act he acted...   His wandering came to an end.  His mind lost in the mist.  His soul searching for its gist. His whole being trying to burst  Like A silent nuclear explosion 💥  The madness taking him over  The sadness drowning him the way...   A lost guy trying to find his aliveness

He fell for her body, She had the most beautiful  voice in the world, She fell for his flirting talks, He was like her self-fulfilling half, In the name of "LOVE" "COMMITMENT & VOWS" were taken!! As time pass by, Life moving on, Body became fragile,  Mind stressed out from the same thing, Soul tried and bored with one another, Now She was no more a satisfaction, Voice became the crow shouting, He was no more a fulfillment, Talks became World Wars, But Both were chained with one another, Chains of "COMMITMENT & VOWS" "Society's order & Family's Pride"  Now bound to live in hell for eternity, Heaven remained just a possibility !!  As for "LOVE", It had disappeared a long time ago, Both of them blindfolded by their desire for one another, Tree of love was never seeded !! The seed was thrown away, Long before it could even spout!! The seed was thrown away, Long before flowers of...

This society  is  my prison , This so called home which is  my cage, Suffocation is increasing by every second , Every day feeling  hell, For what i have seen and been ... All these feeling of frustration, anger,anxiety.... Are boiling , crushing  one another It like a something humongous, Something extremely terrifying is being processed, Just like a huge ticking atomic weapon I can sense my consciousness slipping away, I can sense my monster trying to escape  , I can see the avalanche coming , Taking away me from myself, When i will be completely dissolved, The atomic bomb's clock will stops ticking Destruction and devastation, The society will tremble This prison , this cage ,each and every thing will vanish Then I will  be out of this prison ,this cage Then I won't  look back, I will fly ,high above the sky , I will run ,faster then anyone who ever run, Not even gravity can attract me , Not even light can touch , I...

रिस उठदै छ आज उसलाई आफै संग, असन्तुस्ट छ आज आफै संग, कस्तो थियो उ , कस्तो भयो उ , आज आफैलाई ऐनमा हेर्दैछ , अनि दाज्दै छ आफैलाई , पुरानो उसको तस्बिर संग , ठाउँ तेही थियो , संसार उही थियो , तर समय धेरै बितिसकेछ, त्यो हास्ने हसाउने , खेल्ने खेलाउने , रम्ने रमाउने मान्छे मरेछ अहिले सोच ,विचार र कल्पनामा हराउने भएछ उफ्रिने , चुलबुल सोभाब खोइ कहाँ हराई गयो ठुलो पर्बत चड्छु , रुखका हागा हागामा चड्ने आज हावा जस्तै बिलाई गएछ , सुय्भिमान र आत्मा सन्तुस्टि ले भरिएको मान्छे , आज हासोको पात्रो बन्न पुगेछ , हात मा हात , साथ् मा साथ दिने सिद्द्नात् भएको मान्छे, आज आफ्नु संसारिक खुसिको आसामा फस्न पुगेछ , कहिले छुन्न ! कहिले बन्दिन !! कहिले गर्दिन !! भनेको थियो उसले , आज तेसैलाई दैनिक जिन्दगी बनाउन पुगेछ, अनि त्यो आकाश छुन्छु भनेको थ्यो उसले , आज जमिन मुनिको किरा बन्न पुगेछ , खोज आज अकस्मात के भयो , आफै कता कता हराएको महसुस हुदैछ उसलाई , आज आफै लाई के भयो भनि प्रस्न गर्दैछ , आज त्यो ठिटो आफै संग हराउन पुगेछ , आज तियो हराएको ठिटो आफ्नु आकृति खोज्दैछ , आफ्नु हराए...

के नाम दिऊ यो नातालाई, बहिनी भानुम  कि दिदि, एक सख भानुम  कि एक  मित्र मात्रै,  कि एउटा चिनेको मान्छे मात्रै, तर नाता त जोडिएछ हाम्रो , आत्मियता त  जोडिएछ हाम्रो ,  थाहा नै नाभई  , सोच्दै न सोची , कहाँ,कसरी,कहिले भन्न म  सक्दिन, तर मनले केहि अदृस्य नाता जोडीसकेछ ! रगतको सिइनो भन्दा,  मनले "भाई " भनेको धेरै भित्र बिज्दोरहेछ   सधै हास्ने,खेल्ने ,  नाच्ने ,गाउने, "पर्खि तलाई जानेको छु !!" भनेर थर्कौनी   अबज़आज खोइ कहाँबाट कानमागुन्जिरहेछ !   "मृत्यु" खोइ क हो जान्दिन अजै  म  तर जिन्दगिमा पहिले "चोटमा" परेको छु   कोही आफ्नु  नरहेको महसुस गर्दैछु  एक अञ्जन खोइ भए नि  -  आफ्नु दिदीबहिनी गुमाएको एक "भाई" आज भन्दैछु, अभागी  पनि  कस्तो  हुन  पुगेछु  म  मनमा  दुखका भारी हुदा  हुदै   सारा जिउ कामेर लट्ठ हुदा  हुदै ..  डर र त्रास हुदा हुदै, यी बैगुनी  अखबाट एक थोपा आसु झरन...

Where does he begin ? As his emotions collide, Smashing and boiling inside himself, As he smiles, How will he explain ? As his heart cries from deep within ? Where should he start ? As he himself starting to disappear from his own individuality ! Kindness is such, He wants to make another smile, Sadness is such, He has no-one to share the sorrows, The invisible tears, He shared every moment, The invisible amazement that, He feels in every moment , That "ALIVENESS" !! Yet knowing it's gonna to die. Existing this moment !! Yet knowing it will get extinct. The sorrow of a fellow human whom no one can understand, A story of a free boy who can see invisible chains everywhere, A story of a seeker who seeks, "NOTHINGNESS" All the regrets he had, All the mistakes he committed, All the things he did, Not even a single tear can he shared , It seems to be a strength of the rock not of the flower, Today without any concerns coming out as an invisible flood. Th...